|Wai Zandtao'S BLOG|
I have recently retired early from teaching, and have slowly been coming to terms with what that retirement means. At different periods in my life I have written, and the books are above the blog link on WaiZ' main page. I am in the middle of my current magnum opus which I started nearly 3 years ago - before my final teaching job. I have just added a character to that opus, his name is Sulacco - well that name will be changed, and through that character I hope to investigate the meaning of "A Will to Peace". This of course is very important when the purpose of the book is bringing together different influences in the process of a new beginning.
I had an insight in a recent visit to Bangkok that I should start WaiZ's blog - in line with starting other blogs. I have now done so. Maybe it is significant as an indication that writing is starting - or maybe I am just filling in time?
|Am I ready?|
The issue of writing is starting to form but every time I ask the heart It says I am not ready. In a way I know I am not ready. I felt angry this morning at the spilt sweet milk, why? My shape is not good, my back is straightening a bit, so the ridgepole is contributing.
I know what it is, it is the need for engagement, yet I am not ready.
I started working on wikisource, and I have a page but I am certain I have it wrong. I have asked for help on the page but I don't think it will happen. Have set Wai Z up as a public domain science fiction writer so it is clear what I mean it to be, I hope that legally it is so.
It is all ready to go but I am not. Have recently had some good stuff on insight but I am not spiritually there for some reason - maybe just the physical stress and strain stuff.
What does seem clear is that Wai Z (and Bill M) are my engagement. Then am I engaging if I have a public domain website that no-one reads? So what do I need to do? Go commercial, but I don't agree with that. Much to consider and find out about. I might be considering writing but I know little about the profession of writing, maybe I should. Yet I do not wish it to be a profession, to be engaged in the world of finance, but I do want the works read. Is this a dilemma? Or am I avoiding the professionalism that is commerciality? That I need a certain level of commercial training to learn about writing?
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