When zandtao started reading Nicola’s prologue he felt resistance rise up – he had to stop reading. He tried to engage with this resistance and it made absolutely no sense. Why? He has felt this love, he has written about this love – Real Love. In his own case he has felt this love, and knows personally how it transforms. The resistance makes no sense.
Nicola is effusive. She has the same effusion as these people; zandtao used to recommend these people but is unsure where they are going now. Nicola’s effusion is love. Zandtao feels that love in her, then he looks to feel it in himself. Why can’t he? He can, he has.
Is the answer in surrender? He has felt this love but resists surrendering to it – resists the effusion. When he has loved romantically he has only felt pain, he fears this pain, fim feels this pain and fears it. The resistance is arising from the pain of romantic love and not the experience of spiritual love. Real Love understood this but zandtao has not embodied it – sampajanna.
This resistance led to a long night with his journal “My Sacred Wound” – now 4600 words. Of course the journal is personal because the Sacred Wounds arise from parents and family. However his perspective on Sacred Wounds was not balanced even though he learnt a lot about them.
It is best to look at meditation to see where the problem lies. As said in the intro this unleashing really started a month ago when he suffered d-deficiency because he was not in harmony with nature. Slowly this had been improving but he already knew that autonomy had made a mistake in meditation. There was no insight, ZPAP was changed and insight was found again. But his meditation was still not going through the 4 tetrads – there was no integration, no tathata from love-wisdom.
It is this lack of tathata and clarity that prevented him from seeing what was happening with the Sacred Wounds. Automatically he jumped to fim, father-in-me – as mentioned above, but whilst this was a contributory factor it was not the answer. And it was not the best way of seeing Sacred Wounds.
There was a personal event maybe two weeks ago that triggered this imbalance in Sacred Wounds. A beach friend had developed Alzheimer’s. Zandtao had seen deterioration on social visits, had heard the wife complaining but had been a bit dismissive. The BF went into hospital. He had fallen, broken his shoulder, and it had not set properly. He had to go into hospital for a week so they could observe if there were any problems as he came off meds. They thought not; but in a week of hospital visits zandtao saw the Alzheimer’s, and it frightened him.
This fear triggered other fears associated with Sacred Wounds – upbringing. Initially he focussed on F and fim because in his patriarchal family that is always where things had started. This fear built up fim as the Sacred Wound. But it didn’t make sense because he had crossed the Prajna threshold of autonomy and had developed Real Love. Here is where the lack of tathata came in, he had not seen the ego of fear being built up. When he saw that there was better equanimity. This new ego of fear including fim was building up resistance to love. When he saw this the ego dissolved as did the resistance.
Zandtao was searching for Sacred Wounds, and his desire to work with Nicola’s teachings had led to an imbalance with these Sacred Wounds because of his lack of tathata. Yes fim was still there but it became too big because of fear. There was not a fragmented or powerful fim ego resisting love, it was a series of factors that had triggered a temporary fear ego and resistance. Having seen the imbalance zandtao examined the dynamics between his father and mother and his mim (mother-in-me). The details of this are far too personal for here but he saw with greater clarity how the family dynamics had created his situation.
As a result he now sees his Sacred Wounds not as fim nor as fim and mim, but is more concerned with family upbringing. With the Sacred Wounds of upbringing the following factors might arise again:-
A confluence of fear producing a temporary ego
A return to conformity
But most important for zandtao is the Diamond Sutra warning – follow your ZPAP. Step 10 has been amended:-
“At the core of each person I’ve met or worked with is a profound yearning for unconditional love. To feel alive, connected and present. To awaken and make a difference, especially now. The deepest pain is this agonizing disconnect from our innate nature, which leads to personal miseries and horrifying deeds in our world.” No resistance to this.
“Love’s power certainly helped me.” The word zandtao most likes in this is power, it is the power that decided him to call love a Dhamma comrade. It is the power of love that elevated love in ZPAP to the highest stage of vedana, and it is the power of unconditional love that zandtao feels is absent from institutional practice. This power is the essence of equanimity, and it is a power that makes detachment active – equanimity makes love-wisdom active and not a passive avoidance of emotional motivation. But zandtao notes that in ZPAP there is calm detachment first before unconditional love motivates.
The world of mindfulness lacks embodiment because the motivation of unconditional love has become detached and passive – rather than equanimous and active. Whilst there is increased mindfulness this is not reflected as a more aware society because there is not sufficient genuine leadership by unconditional love. Zandtao directs this at institutions and asks them to enquire.
“It took me on an epic journey throughout my own life, a fire, which consumes me to this day.” Zandtao wants to reflect on his journey in terms of love. Unconditional love has been a fire in his life, but at many times in his life it has been shielded, would it be fair to say it has been shielded by Sacred Wounds – the Sacred Wounds of his family upbringing. His remembrance of childhood love is characterised by numbness – and an intense shyness with women. Relationships with women prior to upheaval were non-existent. They reflected a search for cosmic love but there was not intimate love; bill thinks of the time of love before M as unrequited but on reflection relationships with women after upheaval were common. Of those times prior to M he does not feel any sexual satisfaction but that does not mean there were not relationship with women. Despite his limited sexual interaction because of the path his reflection and contemporary thinking was that of unrequited cosmic love, it became requited with M. Discussed in more detail in Real Love LINK
But even though upheaval had given him a desire for cosmic love there was no unconditional love – except perhaps a developing professional unconditional love for the students. As discussed in Real Love love’s fire was almost extinguished by Peyton – only to be released at Nyanga, maybe 10 years after his first contact with Peyton. Throughout that time love’s fire was expressed through his job, political activity and nature.
Once he left the UK love’s fire started to be liberated – he now sees the tarmac feeling at Gaborone airport as an expression of love’s fire. Cosmic love had been extinguished by Peyton, and bill replaced it with an appalling compromise that was unloving. Romantic love came back after Nyanga but it was brief and ultimately unrequited. There was no further romantic love, and it was nearly a further 20 years long into early retirement when he crossed the Prajna threshold and recognised unconditional love through his z-quest on Real Love. Whilst love’s fire has been a constant in some way its journey in zandtao has not been epic, it is why connection to the path is a more balanced view of love’s fire even though path is love.
There has to be honesty, bill has resisted love – such resistance came naturally out of his upbringing. The resistance he recalls most vividly was before upheaval – and in truth he is grateful it happened this way. It was a thing to return to uni Whit bank holiday after you left. Bill did this to find that many people he knew hadn’t bothered. But one wonderful lady, J, had. J was one of bill’s misplaced fantasies, demure yet beautiful, and she wasn’t out of his league – she was out of his universe. On this bank holiday she sought him out, and told him that she had done this because she just recalls him smiling. They hung together in a group on the Saturday, and Sunday lunch she came and sat alone at the bar in his pub. Bill’s numbness returned and he couldn’t go up to her. She was there way too long but bill remained numb – and she left. He later was in a car back to London, and there was a known friend of hers in the car. Bill managed to get through his numbness with the friend but she was so out of his league the friend did not believe that she would wish to speak with bill; he was understandably protective of her as every jock chased her. During retrospection bill was in a way grateful for this numbness, he would have been a complete besotted doormat. What is even more weird was that another woman he had resisted saw all this!!
Maybe 15 years later there was another deep resistance. He had developed a good relationship with an exiled politician in London. This man mutually respected bill, far less than the deep respect bill had for him. One afternoon his daughter, L, came round to his house. She was younger than bill, maybe up to 10 years younger. This was a serious move on her part and bill was deeply grateful and flattered. But he did nothing. He hid behind respect for the father and that he considered himself too old for the woman. In retrospect again he was grateful for his resistance. A relationship with this beautiful woman together with the respectable community this Elder was a member of, and he could have been there now having contributed in life. Soon after this he began to love Peyton, and his life was drastically altered. This potential life incident with L occurred long after upheaval and yet he resisted.
When bill looks inside he sees a history of resistance to love’s fire – not just in terms of romantic love although numbness was in the arena of romantic love. Where he did not resist love’s fire was in nature, and he can recall wondrous times where he has connected with nature. But these loves did not have the power associated with romantic love – and the fear of being hurt that was so deeply entrenched in his Sacred Wounds. In fact path has conspired with his resistance to love’s fire so that his limited health has legitimately minimised his embodiment to the level of fulfilment and contribution of his website. Surrendering now would bring elation but limited contribution. The other night when he was journalling there were tears of regret at his limitation ata a time of heightened emotion; presumably he has done the best he could?:-
This is probably the compromise where this z-quest is stuck, where does changing resistance take him?
This resistance is a symptom of patriarchy. It grew from a man, my father, whose father had repressed emotion in him, finishing with bill because he had no children. In this small subset of patriarchy love was diverted because of patriarchal demands. Because of the way bill’s father dealt with love for bill’s mother, love was not in his upbringing; bill guesses the similar for his father but he doesn’t know details. In the case of the two older generational wives they were expected to perform within the patriarchy as the role of wife to the man. In bill’s case that might well have happened if he hadn’t resisted – or he might have been a complete reaction and had no path. In men patriarchy does not express love reducing it to consumer units of family. But it can be understood, it is the power of unconditional love that could end patriarchy. “I know firsthand that love’s presence does turn lives around, and what is possible for our planet through its brilliance. Love is an answer for hungry people and a world on the edge.”
One aspect of resistance is complacency. Whilst the inner guide looks at complacency resistance stretches back to his upheaval decision and the level of complacency fear and conformity in that decision. Whilst compassion, caring then education, is clearly a legitimate path, he had always been aware of education being part of patriarchy – what he then saw as system. His compassion chose conformity – he even initially rejected alternative education because it was not mainstream although he looked at the schools in his PGCE year; his rejection was sound – alternative was for the rich, but that could also be an excuse of resistance. Arriving at pathtivism in his retirement the only meaningful struggle is the path, compassion - as education - means path and not trying to change conformist education. Zandtao knows that now – did he know it then? Was his decision complacent? From the outside – even on the path, education is completely defensible – but was it fear and conformity making the decision?
He remembers a monk saying to him that he was not looking for enlightenment just a comfortable life – a complacent compromise. Whilst the monk had issues and he has never looked for enlightenment, has he always been compromised by complacency and fear on his path? Look warts’n’all. Nothing he can do now, but unleashing Nicola’s love might be beyond him – and if it isn’t what benefit to Gaia?
Reading Nicola’s effusive understanding of love it becomes clear about resistance, complacency and compromise. What’s done is done, do the best you can now; that is all there is. “How then do we unleash the power of love and turn the tide in our own lives and this world?”
“Love is our very nature, uniting us in the web of life. We may realize the truth, yes; indeed beyond all conditioning and duality is this vibrant presence, this river of love urging to be lived for real, through our steps and actions in life.” Do the best you can now. “It’s easy to talk the talk, but it takes daring and wisdom to act …. Love lived is a whole different shoe than love felt, conceptualized, or realized …. Ideas, knowledge and concepts about love can keep us stuck in the mind.” Love fights complacency and resistance. “We might have a nicely-drawn map of the dharma in our hand, but if we do not walk the actual journey through the mountains and valleys, then realization isn’t actualized.” How can that be answered?
When zandtao reads Nicola and similar he beats himself up. This could be resistance rearing its head, and yet at the same time love is to make us at peace. When he looks at Nicola she has lived, and he is embarrassed at his fear and conformity, yet others say similar of him. His answer is always “could have done more, could have done far less”, but this whole question of complacency goes round in circles and leaves him frustrated. It is not constructive, or is it love just demanding to be unleashed?
Nicola is extreme in a good way and effusive, but he has heard responses to questions where failing seekers are just told to go away and suffer until they have an answer. Now Nicola is central in ASI – this would not be her way, but just by reading her zandtao feels agitated. And the question that is asked – is it resistance or not? Could he do more now? And there is the destructive question of guilt – could he have done more?
In person Nicola would have compassion, in writing she speaks the truth and people have to ask of themselves. In patriarchy there is so much pain and suffering, good people asking of themselves – raising guilt and other egos, these people need relief from “beating-up”. It is the people who are not following the path who need to feel guilty, and they have defences to prevent Nicola’s deep love from getting to them. Is this love resisting or love caring? These are questions to be asked but it is so “not constructive”. But Nicola has to be Nicola, seekers have to ask these questions, and the complicit within patriarchy will continue to defend. “Sometimes love is lifted onto a holy throne of high ideals, which nobody can ever reach. With expectations of perfection, life then turns into an endless string of disappointments and everyone falls continuously short” [9.33].
Has zandtao surrendered to love? have you? Do the best you can. The answer is be at peace. Wise enquiry is one of the 7 components of practice, accept the disturbance wisely, find peace, and continue developing by studying teachers like Nicola:-
Surrender to love and have faith in your path. Let love in and let wisdom protect your vulnerability – not the egos of hurt creating a barrier to love. Love is in, resistance is not protecting love from coming in, it is preventing love that is already there from expressing itself. Love is in, surrender to the love that is already in and let wisdom handle vulnerability.
Love is in. ZPAP is about bringing in from the outside. Integrate these!! ZPAP - egos blocking stuff come in. Not the real truth, it is not egos stopping stuff come in egos create separation, blocking unity, blocking the path that is in from the path that is out, a barrier between love inside and unconditional love outside. Big error – from Sacred Wounds. Sacred Wounds say you cannot express the love that is inside – eventually leading to a feeling that love was not inside. And his meditation was about bringing stuff in, and resistance stopped bringing stuff in. Reality – resistance was preventing the Unity of love inside and love outside.
How this resistance finished shows how powerful Sacred Wounds are. Over the last few days zandtao repeatedly met resistance, looked at it, thought he had got over it, thought it was complacency and compromise, and in moving on read love is inside and it fell into place – the Sacred Wounds were still happening. It is so obvious when you put it all together. Crossing the threshold was autonomy, Unity, that part of Source that is you. What has zandtao been writing about in Prajna? Real Love and patriarchy. Patriarchy reflects the Sacred Wound of repression – not expressing love. He was not expressing love, the path was inside, he was not seeing love inside and therefore not expressing it because his Sacred Wound would not allow that expression. “Love is in” was enough to end this yet how many times has he known love is inside. It feels like and end, but he knows there is no end – and Nicole says this is particularly true of Sacred Wounds.
“Love’s intelligence is far greater than our little minds can comprehend and forges a way we could not see previously. It moves us to step beyond the old story—into life itself. Unleashing us from the shackles and delusions into wild liberation. To live in kinship with all of life” [9.45]. Isn’t that exactly what zandtao says path is? Isn’t that exactly where autonomy is supposed to be – liberation? And yet zandtao had allowed his Sacred Wound to resist it. It is worth noting again, this is bypassing. It is not intentional, it is not evident in his advice as zandtaomed, and yet could have been present if zandtaomed was “bigger”. Sacred Wounds are a thing for zanshadtao.
“Be assured, love’s power leads from the shore of suffering to liberation and knows the way, even through the most impossible situations” [9.48]. Love’s power leads, this is why he changed ZPAP to the highest vedana. In calm there is no change, change requires power. Step 8 is now changed to “surrender to love”, and in step 9 there is equanimity for the wise loving practice.
And love’s power is what patriarchy fears and what can defeat patriarchy. Throughout her book (see chapter 2) Nicola speaks of love in sampajanna – love in embodied action. These actions are powerful and defy patriarchy but they are not grand and expansive. Patriarchy is so powerful restricting love and its power, expressing love in its smallest way is the way forward – as with all ego letting go one at a time not challenging ego as a whole. Quoted at the beginning of her Ch 2) “love is the one and only answer” – Albert Einstein.
If we are to look at the traditions there is no acceptance of Einstein’s “love is the one and only answer”. Early in zandtao’s practice there was Buddhadasa’s MwB that led to the 4 Dhamma comrades, the 3 characteristics, sunnata and tathata:-
In this there is understanding but where is the unconditional love that is the power for action and change? For zandtao this understanding led to a practice of sampajanna as embodiment and this embodiment was love and its power – Einstein’s one and only answer.
But is this where the traditions lead us – to the action and embodiment of unconditional love and its power? It’s not that unconditional love is not present in the traditional teachings, it is that they are not embodied because of the wisdom emphasis. In equanimity we have love-wisdom and detachment but it is not detachment that avoids action. Equanimity needs to be based in action – action that is sampajanna and embodiment. It can be argued that there is right action across these traditions but is the emphasis on unconditional love and its power for change?
As discussed elsewhere – Real Love and Secular path? – there is a compromise with patriarchy, and this compromise supports wisdom. It tacitly accepts unconditional love, but unconditional love is not emphasised because unconditional love is how we end patriarchy.
In unleashing love – the power of unconditional love – we “want to liberate the energy that is contracted and held in fear, harness the fire inside your captured fury, free the kid in the dungeon, and fiercely stop the bully from destroying lives” [11.24]. “For that you will need to anchor your ship in love with your commitment and intention again and again” [11.25]; “freedom is found, not from anything, but being free to be able to respond from loving presence instead of reacting from ingrained patterns and conditioning” [11.26]. This is freedom from resistance, the resistance of Sacred Wounds that zandtao has spoken of in this chapter, the resistances of kilesa, upadanas, and inappropriate attachments to the khandhas, resistances that are recognised in you practices, the resistances that arise out of fear that from our upbringing disguise themselves as conformity. Love is freedom from resistance and more, it is the unleashed expression of path (Source) – unleashed with equanimity, unleashed but the embodiment of the integration that arises out of the chosen practice.
When our practice does not lead to this unleashing of love, we can know there is resistance – and sadly we can know that in this individual case there is some acceptance of patriarchal conditioning. And when we look at the traditions do we see an unleashing of love? Or at least unleashing of love as an objective – Einstein’s one and only answer?
There has to be a caveat here, a caveat that Nicola and others might not like – it is a caveat that arises from compassion and it is a caveat that a founder of ASI would adhere to in her teachings. But this caveat is from zandtao. Unleashing indiscriminate love on a personal or systemic level leaves us vulnerable, and can cause great hurt. Zandtao has experienced indiscriminate love that was foolish; it caused great pain, and in the long run enabled Real love for zandtao. There has to be love, the caveat asks that wisdom be considered.
When zandtao considers his 3 romantic loves he sees a lack of wisdom in choice but he sees Real Love as a consequence. But what if there had been a wiser choice in partner. There was a need for bill to experience romantic love, there was a need for bill to have been hurt, but could that hurt have been ameliorated? Zandtao does not know if Nicola accepts this caveat or if she says “I feel love” so go for it. Bill went for it, got hurt, reinforced his Sacred Wounds, found Real Love and is now beginning to unleash love (too late?).
But zandtao raises that caveat with regards to patriarchy. Should indiscriminate love lead to dangerous action – action that is in conflict with patriarchy? There are many young loving activists whose environmental action is bringing them into conflict with patriarchy. The caveat opens many questions. Bill always answered the wisdom of political action as whether they were vainglorious. And whether the action can be considered as effective? These questions meant bill never got in trouble. But having said that things are worse than when bill started. When bill looks at young people in Extinction Rebellion or the like, how have their decisions affected their futures? Look at Greta, and the global resonance that had millions of young people across the world active. One could argue that what it did was increase restrictions of civil liberties – cynical zandtao. Struggle is for a lifetime - for centuries – forever?
There are no blanket answers to these individual questions but the Manual gave rise to pathtivism. Nature has given us the path so we can answer these questions. How many young activists are on their paths but are making decisions that will affect their lives? When looked at generationally, the generations that make up zandtao’s life have failed. Patriarchy has increased, the struggle that has been within zandtao’s life has not made matters better. What if bill had committed a vainglorious act? Within those generations it would have just brought him conflict and would have been ineffective given the generational trend? But maybe young people have to do these acts of unleashed love? Sobeit. But how many young people on these marches thought there would be some change?
There are no easy answers within this caveat on a personal or patriarchal level, but then why should there be? The people with the best answers – nature’s answers - are those following their paths – eg Nicola, but how many young people take the time to ask?
Yet at the same time could this caveat be considered resistance?
It is worth revisiting this caveat. In bill’s case it was not the romantic love for the individual that was the problem, it was their baggage or egoic complications that were the issue. M already had a partner even though she chose to leave, Peyton had children, and he doesn’t know what Nano’s situation was – but it wasn’t just her. His unwise love chose to “ignore” these issues – at best try to work through them; foolish decisions.
With regards to compassion and patriarchy there are many egoic issues for activists discussed in the Manual LINK. But just consider a common one – “make a difference”. How much is this about the individual being recognised as making a difference? The struggle for change requires long-term organisation and commitment based on the path – not a vainglorious event; such events are often “token” victories allowed by patriarchy to convince people it is caring.
Perhaps this caveat concerning unleashing love is more concerned with it being Real Love rather than the need for wise caution to be considered. Does genuine love have its own protection, and rather than wise caution wisdom needs to be applied to ensure the love is genuine – Real Love?
Nicola describes a Great Passage [11.27] – a human crucifixion and resurrection:-
1) Dying Phase – Disidentification with self and self-esteem
From what zandtao can piece together this is disidentification with ego. “In order to travel from one stage of life or consciousness to another we must leave behind our old clothes” [11.31]. “Give over your ideas, the stories you cling to, your beliefs—whether they are nice or awful—your status, the people you are attached to and a way of living that you call normal. Hand it over, take off your clothes, not just mentally, but emotionally, spiritually, and even physically. Let yourself be stripped naked by love’s grace” [11.32]. In the Manual zandtao described this as complete disenchantment.
2) Threshold Stage
“After the disillusionment, the dying phase, we enter into the threshold stage. With nothing to hold onto we walk emptied out into the tomb. Here we lay down on the altar and rest in stillness, in the unknown of the great mystery”[11.36]; “in this sacred ground between time and space, silence wraps you and love unfolds you. Allow yourself to rest here for a while” [11.38].
“Stay close, a profound mystery is unfurling, which knows and flows between the crevices of your heart and the great song of life” [11.40]. Zandtao has never liked stages eg stages here or the stages of the Ascension people. First and foremost stages become targets, seekers think in terms of such targets and measure themselves against them. The targets become their seeking, and instead of seeking the path seekers measure their progress in terms of attaining these targets. And their teachers tend to encourage this process because it is what they have known personally. Targets can become a straitjacket. It is zandtao’s intention to determine what Nicola’s stages are, and to consider his personal history in these terms.
3) Birthing stage
“We are emerging into the third stage called the birthing. You may experience a quivering, a shaking, and a waking. A stirring and rising from within. Pulsing red blood and the living waters are filling your vessel anew. You are being resurrected into life” [11.41].
4) Life’s calling
“In the fourth stage of this passage you discover your true life’s calling and gather the down-to-earth skills to be of service in the world” [11.43].
“This sacred passage can be taken over a lifetime or it happens within a moment. You can consciously undertake this journey like the ancient passages for three holy days and nights. However, to emerge all the way through we cannot skip any part of this sacred passage” [11.44].
“This transition is not a neatly packaged, streamlined path that can be forced or created.” Here we definitely agree. For zandtao upheaval is always significant, and it was the time when love was first unleashed in life – apart from the mother-love that was soon repressed. At upheaval he threw off the old clothes of his upbringing, there was even aa time in Sale where he waited on the threshold of his new life. He returned to London to start his new life looking for a calling that became compassion and then education.
But upheaval was only partial. He gathered new clothes during his 2nd childhood, and then began his retirement looking for a new life. During retirement he began to follow his path, but he never saw it as complete. Often there have been egos that have been let go, and a new stage in life started but the calling remained the same - his path.
Zandtao also notes that he does not consider his Prajna threshold of autonomy as connected with the threshold stage above. Zandtao does see all of this as part of the mystery of consciousness as described by Eckhart here.
If he can be presumptive this is Nicola’s practice, and through this practice she would reach autonomy or liberation – a love-unleashed liberation. Amusing. Zandtao thinks of all the numbers in Buddhism, his own frequent use of numbering, and yet he does not like stages. Amusing. But practice is practice, and for zandtao Nicola is proof of her practice working – and he cannot say the same of himself. But the rub is, this z-quest was to learn Nicola’s practice – and he is doing that.
Zandtao is unsure of what Nicola means by the threshold stage, but he can see this practice in terms of individual egos as part of ZPAP:-
Disidentification of ego – letting go
Unity - Reconnecting with Dhamma (Source)
Integration
Embodiment
“On this holy journey life is the greatest teacher and love is the ultimate guide through the great passage of our times …. May we rise and unleash love, come what may, as if our life depends on it. It does” [11.46].
For zandtao the issue is the caveat, but the caveat is now changed. For Real Love there is no vulnerability – no need for protection; we don’t need protection from unleashed love. What we do need protection from is our vulnerability to ego, ego masquerading as part of real love eg in romantic love. The wisdom needed is not concerned with unleashed love but the usual separation from love that occurs with ego. Wisdom, let go of egos – unleash love.
Unleashing Love is very much a manual, so zandtao started a notes document called Nicola’s Practices; he has now decided this will be a section in his z-quest. So in section 2 you can see Nicola’s Practices.
Meanwhile his own quest into Unleashing Love and Sacred Wounds has examined resistance and has moved onto traditions.
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